1. "

    1. You did not love me. Give up your game; you lost many months ago. Your heart is cold, rotting slowly; nobody can find their way past those black stone walls.

    2. You never knew me, not the way he does. You do not know every inch of my skin: every scar, freckle, flaw. You do not know why I cry myself to sleep, and why I smile when I wake in the morning. You do not know a thing – do not fool yourself.

    3. I did love you. I loved you recklessly. I loved you the way nobody wants to be loved – for my love was destructive. I could feel myself falling, and I wanted so desperately to pull you down with me. But I never could. And so I stopped grasping at your shirt collar, and hoisted myself up alone.

    4. Stop hurting yourself; you are only hurting others in the process. I’m begging you now: let that pain go.

    5. I am curled up inside my bed sheets, eyes closed and ears open. I have always loved the sound of rain hitting windowpanes. Rain always made me think of you: sudden; overwhelming; vengeful.

    6. I was never disappointed in you – I was disappointed in this person you have become. What has happened to your heart? Where has it gone?

    7. It was never meant to be. From the moment we met, I think we both knew.

    8. You used to make my soul leap out of my skin, wanting to catch a glimpse of the boy I used to think of so fondly. But now, my flesh shivers in fear; you do not hold the power over my body that you once did.

    9. I am sorry that you are alone – but I cannot be the one to fix you. I cannot bandage up your sores, and kiss your bruises until they heal. I can only be your friend, and if that is not enough, then I will walk away.

    10. I have felt ill since those words left my lips – I should never have said them. Why now? If you did not love me then, nothing has changed.

    11. Perhaps I am cruel, but I am also in love. Falling changes you, you and I both know that. But feelings that are unreciprocated? Those hurt more than anything I have ever known.

    12. Your world began to disintegrate long before I arrived. Your love is beautiful – but it does not belong to me.

    13. I was never able to distinguish between truth and reality. Your words blur into one, they become empty.

    14. I have painted my heart yellow. That was always my favourite colour when I was with you. I am trying to be happy. Why can’t you be happy, too?

    15. We will never be in love.

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    My dream appartment

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  4. "I won’t kiss you. It might get to be a habit and I can’t get rid of habits."
    —  F. Scott Fitzgerald, Flappers and Philosophers (via teenager90s)

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  5. "Why didn’t I learn to treat everything like it was the last time. My greatest regret was how much I believed in the future."
    — Jonathan Safran FoerExtremely Loud and Incredibly Close (via feellng)

  6. "You only live twice:
    Once when you’re born
    And once when you look death in the face."
    — Ian Fleming, You Only Live Twice (via kushandwizdom)


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  7. "

    1 (Lady sings the blues) - The feeling that you experience after a break up is horrendous, no question.

    But don’t think that you’re being ridiculous, those feelings of anger, sadness, denial and grief are all totally normal.

    However, instead of trying to ignore them or beating yourself up about feeling sad, the best thing you can do is to just go with them…

    Don’t be afraid to cry hysterically, make your way through five tubs of Ben and Jerry’s or consume a few too many bottles of wine - whatever works for you, just don’t bottle your feelings.

    2 (Don’t torture yourself) - The problem with a messy break-up is that you’ll never find the answers you’re really looking for.

    You fantasise a million different situations as to why he has broken your heart like this.

    Maybe he’s just too stressed with work? Maybe he just needs some space to breathe?

    Don’t waste your time soul searching over why the relationship ended, texting him for his thoughts and wondering “was it something I did?”

    Face up that it’s over, and look to the future.

    3 (Cut it out) - The only way to get over someone is to try and live your life normally without constant reminders of them around.

    That means a bit of a cleanse (it’s tough love time):
    • Cut all ties with him - no phone, no Facebook, no communication, no excuses!
    • Stop reliving your relationship with your friends on the phone. Thinking about the ‘good ol’ days’ won’t help.
    • Removing all reminders of them from your home, car, and work space. That includes the little passport photo of him you keep in your wallet.

    If you can’t bear to throw things away, put them in a box, tape it up and hide it somewhere hard to get to - preferably guarded by three headed dogs.

    4 (Rediscover your single side) - It’s a cliché, but it’s true - when you enter into a relationship you leave behind bits of your single life.

    Although some aspects might be best left in the past, there will be some things that you will want to reclaim.

    Time to get that haircut you always wanted but he didn’t like, blow a shed-load of cash on outrageous shopping sprees and get back to doing the things that you put on hold for him.

    Start saying ‘yes’ to every opportunity that comes your way - if you used to turn down work drinks to be with your other half, now is the time to get out there and mingle.

    This will help on two levels - you’ll be reminded that being single can actually be a really great thing, plus you’ll be so busy that all thoughts of “him” will disappear.

    5 (Take your time) - It’s been said that the quickest way to get over someone is to get under someone, but frankly, we disagree.

    The quickest way to feel even more miserable is to sleep with someone you’re not really interested in.
    Ignore your friends and their “helpful” advice, and make sure that you move on at your own pace.

    If you want to take a break from the opposite sex for a year then so be it. And equally if you want to get right back out there you have to do what feels right for you.

    No one should judge you or push you into meeting someone new sooner than you’d like. The only person who can make you feel better is you!


    How to get over someone you love, 5 steps to freedom

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  8. "little do my parents know.. they lost their daughter years ago."
    — agv (via aiiiiizeymaaaar)

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  9. "If you can’t handle me at my 666 then you don’t deserve me at my 420."

    Marilyn Monroe (via kushandwizdom)

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  10. "Behind my carefully buttoned collar is my nakedness, the struggle to find clean clothes, food, meaning, and money. Behind sex is rage, behind anger is love, behind this moment is silence, years of silence."

    Dorothy Allison (via kushandwizdom)

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